My Intellectual Autobiography - a creative narrative writing
MY ADVENTURE OF CHASING DOWN A DREAM, ONE STEP AT A TIME; An
intellectual autobiography
I am Cole B., a third year college student of Ateneo De Naga University, taking up
Bachelor of Science in Tourism Management. I see myself as an embodiment of a new meaning
of life, whose purpose on earth is to find the true calling of life and fulfill it. I believe taking
education is the platform and biggest step towards reaching my goal for a destiny which I will
decide.
“Good Morning miss!”, “Good Morning Ma’am!” “Good Morning Madam!” –These are the
phrases that I dreamed to hear as I walked down a hallway of a big building when I was five. I felt
like having a stick would grant me the power to control many kids the same age as me. I dreamed
of becoming a woman of knowledge whose sympathy is for her students. I see myself as someone
whom they can rely on when they have problems in understanding English, reading long stories
and counting in math. At the age of five, my principles in life are not that deep and constructed.
The way I look at things are merely based on a low level of understanding and mostly interpreted
based on what I see from the television, particularly in Disney movies and cartoon channels. My
mom would even buy me different colors of chalkboard and a mini-board where I can practice
writing and solving numbers. Since I was a single child, they let me invite friends in the house to
play. I remember a time when we play “teacher-teacheran” with my couple of friends, I pretend i
am the teacher and gave them something to do, “Missions” as a describe them before. One of my
playmates got angry because she wanted to be the teacher but I opposed. I told her that since I am
the owner of the stick, I should be the one to teach. Everyone agreed and we continued to play. All
of my friends were happy playing except her. Assuming I have the spirit of a teacher at the age of
five, I told them that whoever will choose to go against my will must be given a punishment –just
like exactly what I see in the television; teachers scolding their students for disobeying. By that
time, I Jokingly scolded my friend since she’s not contributing anything to the play. I pointed the
stick straight to her and told her to face on the corner of a wall in a certain period of time. She got
mad, and snatched the stick out of my hand and hit me, then I cried. It is a funny thing to say that
by the time I was hit by a stick on the head, I realized that there is a danger in becoming a teacher.
And that exists when they are confronted with hard headed students and have miscommunications
and misunderstanding. That moment changed my interest from becoming a teacher to being a
soldier. I can clearly say that I had a drastic transition of becoming who i want to be while growing
up.
Individuals who are brave and courageous enough to fight for their beloved father land –that’s how
I describe soldiers when I was eight years of age. I am fascinated by how they are depicted in the
media before. I see them in newspapers, magazines and mostly in television. I am amazed by how
they are looked up to by society. At the age of eight, I am fully aware that soldiers undergo difficult
training and serious tests before they become eligible in their profession. My dream of becoming
a soldier didn’t last long. My father is fond of watching movies and most of the time what he
watches are action movies. That saved me from dreaming about something that will put me in a
grave. Through action movies, I was enlightened about how risky my dream was. I keep telling
myself that if i choose to become a soldier there will be no assurance that my hardships will payoff. It is because I knew that once I join the military, even if I train hard and pass all the tests, once
I am sent to fight in a war, I will panic and die. So you see, it will not be practical for me to invest
my parent’s money and effort on education, if at the end I knew that there is a big probability that
I will be taken down by a single metal-bullet.
As I grew up and became aware of what is happening around me, I discovered that my mom is
sick and she was diagnosed with systemic autoimmune disease or Lupus as Doctors call it. It is the
scariest moment of my life because I thought I would lose a mother. I am afraid that the disease
will take my mom away from me. That thought pushed me to dream of becoming a Doctor. I
remember how my mom changed moods when she was experiencing pain during those times. I
also experienced being left by my parents in a relative’s house because they can’t bring me on
other days of dialysis. Looking back, I think that was the hardest challenge that my family
experienced. It is also the time that at a very young age I made a promise to myself to finish my
studies and become a doctor so that I can cure the love of my life which is my mom.
Although I had the idea of being a doctor, there were moments in my life where I deviated from
that idea. When I was in grade school I was always chosen as a candidate for mathematical contests
during private school day. That gave me an idea of becoming a mathematician. That dream was
short lived when I realized that I actually wasn't good at math. The only reason I solved things and
equations is because they haven’t yet mixed with letters and a lot of symbols. I discovered it in
my first year of high school when I started having troubles in counting numbers while figuring so
many things just to find the X and Y’s.
It happened that when I turned High school, my interests and hobbies didn’t reflect the way I
planned to become. It is the time of my life wherein as I faced the teenage years, I discovered that
I like to become a fashion designer because of my love in sketching and designing. I use these
advantages to become a member of the school’s journalism. I was accounted as the organization’s
cartoonist, lay-out artist and also one of its literary writers. Which gave me an opportunity to
compete and learn outside the school. My journey of being a junior high school student didn’t end
up in the four corners of the journalism department, it enhanced my skills and abilities, especially
my confidence as an individual to make a stand in front of a crowd and deeply express myself.
That unlocked my other passion in life. I started joining pageants inside and outside of school and
bagging titles and crowns.
Not all days favors me. There are times when my expectations and plans don't line up with reality.
My biggest downfall in my career is when I was obviously cheated by my competitors during a
big pageant. This is the time when my philosophical value that I hold in life was measured. I
finished the night with a smile on my face knowing that I will go home fair and have inner peace
in self. I was able to hold on my value of staying morally upright despite the prevalence of immoral
acts. I went home with the acceptance of the loss. Respecting the outcome of the pageant has
rewarded me with good karma. After what happened I gained so much attention and respect from
people and became a friend to everyone. I didn’t just become presentable to the eyes of my friends
and family but also to God.
Little did I know that God has a better plan for me. He didn’t permit me to take home the crown
of Ms. Sipocot for the reason that it's his plan to make me the Ms. El verde Of Camarines Sur
which granted me full tuition scholarship throughout my college years. There Are times I am proud
of myself and also there are days that I feel like I'm disappointed. When I'm proud, I treat myself,
I celebrate. But when I feel disappointed, I uplift myself. I think of ways and motivations that will
inspire me to pursue harder to achieve what I set out to do, my goals and dreams. I continue
improving myself so that one day I can be an inspiration to some, and become an epitome of a
person who perfects herself by welcoming all opportunities and challenges that come her way.
As I continue to live with my awakened passions, making my realty dreams a reality has led my
feet to enroll in a prestigious University of Ateneo De Naga. It has broadened my horizons, to the
point that it feels like I bloom like a flower. I enrolled in the course of Tourism because I can see
that this does not only reflect my passion but also this has an endless amount of opportunities for
me. Tourism industry is not only about walking in an aisle of an aircraft, wearing a fancy uniform,
while sporting a million dollar smile to passengers and flashing exceptional postures and manners
to people of the world– one thing I discovered as I venture the world being a student majoring in
tourism. When I was a child I used to see the tourism industry like that, but as I grow older and
become more knowledgeable about things through the help of education, I am being awakened
from this ignorance.
Five years from now, I see myself as a woman of refined behavior and speech. I am polite, pleasant,
classy and my manner has courtesy and care. I envision myself as someone who is ready enough
to use her voice to a greater good and be able to extend hand for the purpose that she can serve and
be able to contribute even a little in the society. I see someone who is fulfilled in the endeavors in
life and willing to love and be loved.
I believe that we individuals are destined to have our own battles in becoming who we are. Many
of us come to a time in our life where we start questioning ourselves about things such “Who am
really I?”, “What am I doing here?”, “What am I created for?” and so on. And when it happens
sometimes we become in an endless cycle of questioning everything, One after another. In this fast
changing world as we individuals are in the search of our purpose, we spend our lives dissatisfied,
proving things and most especially proving ourselves to others around us. Many of us become
confused and mistaken on recognizing what does really matter and what does not. And there will
come a point wherein we will find ourselves in a path that is unfamiliar yet we refuse of not taking
it. There will be a constant trying for everything that can do, wherein we may succeed and the
others may not.
Of course, I understand that life is not just a bed of roses, and challenges and hardships are an
integral element of life. In conclusion, it is worth noting that my intellectual path has been a long
and bumpy one. It started when I was young and is still going on. I have faced the challenges that
have helped shape my destiny. I have also experienced some barriers that I have had to overcome
in order to be who I am. One thing I know for certain is that the journey is not yet finished since
no one stops learning until they are in the grave. Therefore, I still have a long journey ahead of
me. The only difference is that I am more knowledgeable than I was in the past.
Name of Alma Mater in Grade school: Nazareth Institute of learning and formation
Junior High school: Sipocot National High School
Senior High school: Sipocot National High School