Benjie Fiel Andriano

Surviving in the world of unfavorable By Benjie F. Andriano It hardly takes to try to survive in an environment wherein something is missing and all the time the brink of happiness is not enough to propel the drive of excellence. I can freshly recall the excitement brought by just listening to my favorite AM program before, a robin- hood type of program anchored by then a heroic man I knew, to some extent, I even dreamt of him- a figure of perfect emblem that I always long to follow. From that time, I guessed, I was eleven years old, I am much than sure that my heart belongs to the 'world of words', I want to be like Jessica Soho, I want to be a reponsible and inspiring journalist. I envisioned this a thousand times! I even bought a couple of radio sets just to listen to my favorite local media men, for they turned out as my inspirations. Then comes the peak of high school, I was about to graduate and I again felt the excitement- that is to enter college. I am very inspired to take a step closer to my dreams. But because of compelling circumstances, I recoiled my trajectory, I focused to different path. I enrolled college and took up Bachelor Secondary Education, and yes I am now miles away from my Mass Communication dream. Despite the situation, my heart still beats for a familliar task, therefore I applied for a staffer in the students publications office of Eastern Visayas State University, and fortunately I qualified. Now my dreams is gradually sinking again to my consciousness! In the publications office, I met a lot of inspirations- they were people of great writing prowess! Time again came wherein I need to leave the portals of my beloved collegiate alma mater, also I need to step away from my family in the students publications. It is a momentous event to receive my diploma, but it is far more than grieving to lose the familiar corners where I laid my paper and pen. Now, I am presently practicing my profession- as a teacher of a public national high school in Leyte. Here, I find myself caught in a script of surviving in a routinary tasks, to tell you frankly, I am not happy. It is not that I look down this profession, because the reality is that I cannot find any profession in this world that can commensurate the nobility teaching always construe. It is simply that I am not happy. I am surviving now in a world in which my heart seems not familiar to groove in but I try to compose myself and keep doing my best to become a good, or even a better teacher I can possibly become. But amidst all of these, I am not happy. To readers, let this write-up be an opener to all of you, you need to follow your childhood dreams, you need to step on the pedal to walk on the shadow of your childhood heroes, because if you don't, you will not be happy! Again, you will be working, but you will not be happy! Before I forget, this I will tell you, "it is better to die in the hay of your own field, than to live in the world of others you unconsciously create!".