Kaitlyn Kelly

Together This Is a Mission You light it up and I know I should look away, But I know I have to see this, So I can understand why I need to help, Why I cry and why I can't give up. The smoke I can see now and almost smell, The distance doesn't matter the scene is too strong It burns inside of me like I am right next to you. Why do you love it so much? Why is it so strong? You can do so much better, This isn't how it's meant to be, Why can't you see that? Why can't you imagine it? You're older and wiser, But you still can't see, That there is a way to quit The loneliness it's coursed you, Soon your hair's falling out, After the news that your diganced with something I've dreaded, You'll die soon they tell you, You can't fight it forever, the docters explain, You can't fight it much longer. It has shortened your life, Like I knew it would too. And you look at me with those big sad eyes, And now you see why I cried. You finally see why, You understand more what I feel inside, Why I would beat myself up inside, When you wouldn't listen, and it felt like there was nothing I could do, What I've always felt within, Something takes me back to the present, Away from my thoughts of the future. Back to the world where I care about you so much and I don't want to see that happen to you, but I know it has the will, the will you won't try to fight. I care about what happens to you Not just because you're a friend, Not only because I've known you close to forever, Or because we've grown up together, Or because we live around the corner from each other. But because you're a person, And has made a mistake, A person that stands like everyone else. I care about what happens to your life. Maybe because of your smile Maybe that you won't hit a girl when she gets on your nerves So when I see after school the steps to when it's being done and done The pack pulled out The lighter coming out You bend over A fire is lite and quickly disappears again The smoke comes out The white stick stands like a rocket so close to take off Sitting on your lips Chalking your lungs Shutting them down Leading to the end of your life That is why I cry Scared you won't listen And scared to talk about it But I know I have to The butterflies are stronger now, like they always get It's scaring me to death I never thought that you would smoke But I can't give up So that is why I try And I will never stop. You say I can't help You keep on saying no Stop saying there is no use I don't want to cry, but it's getting so hard as we talk I don't know if you've heard it The misery in my tone You try to explain why it'd never work But you don't know you make me cry myself to sleep at night There's no point in even trying Others have tried, you spoke I begged you to let me help, but you kept telling me the two lettered word, no People die from smoking every day I pleaded I don't want you to die young, my voice raised But you just pushed me away, like I dreaded You claimed that would never happen to you You clamed you would quit by yourself So I asked you to call if you needed help Doubting, but hoping it would happen I silently promised him and myself I would never give up You've heard the stories But you have fright the truth You have hurt yourself too unknowingly Have stomped on the hearts of those who have tried to help you But for me it's not dead yet Not gone with the wind I'm not done yet The dream's still standing The tears leave wet lines down my cheeks Leading into my mouth, and my mouth becomes salty I want to always be able to play sports by your side To feel my feet on the court and in the mud I want to always see your smiling face I want to know you'll be here for a long time I want to have the memories of you Forever and always So please don't let me die inside when I see you light up a cigarette And please don't tell me there's no use 'Cause your life is worth it One day I'll see you and look you into your eyes But I won't turn away to hid Because I want you to see why I cry This isn't just a project I dreamed up one night You mean something to me And I know I can't give up I wish you could see how much this means to me I want you to know that it's hurting me, putting into me misery Time now is similar to how it use to be I don't know much about you But I want to We can stand together This is a mission